OUT OF REACH

OUT OF REACH

I watch you while you apply your makeup, your mouth open, pulled down, your eyes wide as you apply your mascara.  I mimic the action.  You run your fingers through your hair and blow me a kiss.  My heart soars but all too soon you are walking away and there is nothing but darkness as I remain suspended, waiting, until we meet again.

A chance meeting in a lift and my heart pounds, I watch as you press the button for the top floor. I ache to touch you as you lean toward me, but knowing it is forbidden, I restrain myself. You walk away again, leaving behind the scent of your perfume; sweet and tangy.  I break from the rules and breathe in deep, consuming you and wait once again.

You are seated at a table in a small café, I watch as you pick up your cup, blow gently over the top and take a sip.  Unconsciously I mirror your actions.  My eyes narrow and then widen in surprise as a man joins you.  I smile because I know he is not a threat.  He is not someone who could take you away from me.  I am happy to share you for now because our special time is fast approaching.

My breath is coming quick. I watch from above as you touch yourself.  Your skin is slick with sweat, your body
writhing against the sheets; head thrown back, eyes closed and mouth slightly
parted.  You arch your back taking yourself deeper and I ache to touch you but instead I touch myself.  Your eyes are closed but mine are wide open as I watch you, feel you bring yourself to the climax you crave.  My body shudders in time to yours.

You stretch like a cat, a feline grin upon your face.  Our eyes meet and you look at me, really look
at me and for the first time I feel like we are really connecting.  I will touch you. I will take you. And then
you roll onto your side, close your eyes and the moment has passed.  I shake silently now, suddenly afraid at how close I have come to breaking the rules, how close I have come to losing you forever, because I can never touch you, can not have you.

I am nobody.

I am a shadow.

I am a reflection.

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